I had woken up with a lovely morning, I had the weirdest dream that I was breakdancing with a bunch of girls and we needed to be exactly the same because we were performing and people were amazed at the fact that I was up there because it was non common to see me up there dancing, but I remember I was so into it haha… (on the side note I don’t breakdance, at all… but I just found it cool that I was with these girls that I needed to trust in and we all needed to trust each other in order for everything to flow smoothly.)
So I woke up and I started talking to God about that dream cause it was so weird haha. He didn’t really tell me anything yet except for what was obvious – sisters in Christ needing to trust each other. Then I continued on with talking to the Lord and I realized something about me always needing His love and so I asked him to show me something and I got up from my bed and saw a letter on my work desk and there was a direct deposit into my bank account for $285 dollars CAN and I melted because I’ve been trying to pay off my OSAP which is a College Loan and they took $100.01 from my account and I had to help my parents with payments so I was under for a bit and basically I was in dept… and I hate dept and then the Lord basically payed my debt today and I am over now and I was so thankful – I wrote on the letter what God did for me, he didn’t let me say “I didn’t deserve this”. It wouldn’t leave my mouth or even dare birth in my mind.. which is pretty amazing 😀
Then I yeah, I recorded a video of my cute little bunny and cleaned her cage and showers are like, THE BEST BLESSING EVER. Then I saw something, it affected my heart and I was just in one of those trances where your staring straight and your not focused but your just staring LOL and when I finally came back I looked at this bible verse on my wall and it says “Jesus, our high priest, is able to understand our weaknesses. When Jesus lived on earth, he was tempted in every way. He was tempted in the same ways we are tempted, but he never sinned. With Jesus as our high priest, we can feel free to come before God’s throne where there is grace. There we receive mercy and kindness to help us when we need it.” Hebrews 4:15-16 (NLT) and so as I was reading that, I fell on my knees and read it slowly. It really got me that Jesus understands really what we deal with, and we can feel free to go before God’s throne where there is grace and I needed His grace a lot in this moment, I also needed to receive his mercy and kindness to help me because without His mercy I know I cannot overcome that which I saw.
Then the Lord reminded me of a verse my dad’s aunt had said and read yesterday, from the book of Proverbs. “A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.” Proverbs 17:22 (ESV) The Holy Spirit told me that the devil always wants to steal your joy, and when he is able to make you sad your day is ruined and you cannot move forward. The Lord always wants us to be happy in Him, and always wants us to be filled with joy through everything and before all man because it shows people something different for real! That even though all theses things are happening, God is in control!
“Keep your heart with all vigilance, for from it flow the spring of life” Proverbs 4:23 (ESV) and “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” John 10:10 (ESV) and “Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.” 1 Peter 5:8 (ESV)
So, yes many life lessons I have learned today. So much blessings, and love and compassion in one day from God. Im so thankful! I also have a photoshoot today, and tomorrow! God is good 🙂