Today I went through critisicm – I did. I was criticized by how I lived my life, my choices, my decisions, how I do certain things and how I solve problems.
The thing about criticism is that – to me – in this area of my life, sucks. For a while I didn’t see criticism as a bonus or a positive thing at all. But today, I learned and am learning that criticism from a person that cares and loves you is [them helping you out.]
I still have to learn to accept peoples criticism about me, it isn’t easy. Especially when you realize you don’t like being told *your wrong or *someone tellin you HOW to live the life you have. Boy, is it hard to stay quiet when you do not agree with something. It is difficult!!!! So, I do believe that God is exposing and allowing these moments to happen so I can learn to be honest with myself, learn to accept criticism from others, especially those in authoritative positions, and learn to have faith in the One who is truly pure and holy; the one who transforms me and is my strength when I am weak, who despite my obvious failures still knows he will win the battle (cause he has won the battle for my sin with his blood).
I need to believe He will remember his promise. He will continue working in my life with my broken nature, moulding me and washing Me Everyday – till the day I die and if I live till he comes back then when he cicomesnes back will I finally be purified and in His presence.
Now that I think of it, if I was purified now – perfected now… I really wouldn’t need Jesus. You know? I wouldn’t need to depend on him for my salvation, or depend on him for my acceptance in God, nor would I need to depend on him to perfect me. I’d just be “perfect” and I just saw myself that way in a vision and the Lord is showing me with all that perfection I’d be pretty lonely without the Him. Without Jesus is an emptiness – we can have all this goodness but without God, its empty.